Again.

Well. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I've found that I've lost touch with too many of my friends. Like family, friends are just as important to me and I feel ashamed that I've not kept them as well as I should have.

Always the loner, I have two really great friends, whom I can tell anything to. However, I realize that I shouldn't hold myself back in the friends department simply because I'm shy. I've forever tried to keep the shyness at bay and show courage in being the first to shake hands and introduce myself. Though, there is no doubting the rapid heartbeat and butterfly nerves beneath the surface.

This is my way of sort of branching out in hopes to make new contact with my old friends. I understand that it may seem like I've blown some of you off, when really the story goes much deeper than that. Still, I'd like to offer my appologies.

Over the years I've been without a journal, again, losing touch with friends, and have kept to myself and my small bubble of a life. That is no longer satisfactory in my book.

For some, who find this anyway, I hope this is enough to branch out. I wish few in particular people found this and emailed/called me in response to reach out, but again, I understand why that may not happen. I've prepared myself to keep this blog private and, in its own way, silent.

I hope all, whom know who they are, are well and happy in their lives and with their families.

I'll be writing regularly, again.

Caela~